J blog?
S so having the blog has changed the way i look at my life and my kids. i need to blog about how the blog has
changed things. but last night i stood outside and watched my beautiful
children playing. it was way past their bedtime and the sun was going
down and there was the tiniest drizzle outside and dan was working with
his saw and hammering shit and there was music playing from the garage
and i just stood there smiling and smilng and smiling and feeling so
damn lucky.
S two little boys were wearing shirts and
shoes and that was all. no diapers.
J i completely agree with you.
J the other day b and s were running around in
the backyard in just their undies.
J totally grubby.
S jamis was pushing maxie in the swing. dan
was singing. ethan was cuddling with me, we were dancing and i wanted to hold on to that day forever in my mind
J dripped popsicle juice dried on the backs of their
arms down to their elbows.
J yup
S cuz you know how i worry about what it will
be like when my boys are all old and i’m looking backward in our life
looking for the closeness
J that’s why i wrote that thing about the bike path
last week.
J ys.
J yes.
S what is wrong with me i’m all teary right now
S what a goof
J i know. and i haven’t written about it, but
there’s no guarantee that the girls are gonna be living the next town
over, you know?
S anyway. the blog has changed things for me
J they might move to africa or something
J africa?
J really?
J me too.
J that would be a good post.
S yeah. maybe i can get some writing in after lunch
S it’s nearly impossible once i get home.
well, YOU know.
J did i tell you what s said about being a mom
and taking her kids to see b on a work site?
J so cute
J i love that she incorporates him into her future.
S no
J he of course is oblivious
S that is so great
J she’s a wise one.
S and roles already personified
S or something
S she IS
J she found my make up brush the other day. the one
i never use. and she put it up to her face and started brushing on
imaginary powder
J she said, can i have one of these when i am a grownup
S it is so clear in so many ways what the
next 15 years will be like for them. then again…maybe not so much
J i want the same one you have mommy.
J if we can find one
J !
S how adorable
J i feel so sad, though, that she already wants to
grow up so much
S but it will be a sweet, slow growing up no
matter what. easy and careful and guided. b? might not be as easy.
um. yeah. safe to say. but he’s got genius in him and just needs to find
that outlet.
S k. back to work for me for a bit. have to
right myself. check in in a bit
J indeed
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