S to top it all off…
S he took my car to get the emissions test again
J i could give you 5 more examples off the top of my head.
S to a different place
J but i will spare you
J did it pass?
S and i didn’t have the paperwork in the car
S so he called me
J oh NO
S and it’s at home
S and he fucking hung up on me
J shiite
J no WAY
J that is rude
S so i called him back and said forget it
S i’ll deal with it
J that sucks
S but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, now he’s going back to the other place again
S where hopefully they won’t ask for it
S and if they do he’ll go home to get it
J suckerooney
S and why do i have to feel guilty about all of this????
S i don’t
S but i do
S i have to work. i have to be here. i can’t do this stuff during the
week like i used to
S i feel like being max for a minute and walking around the house
crying and screaming and yelling I’M MAD over and over again
J :-(
J BRB
J don’t feel guilty. you guys are in the midst of some pretty major role
changes. and it’s hard. harder for you. b/c you are conscious of it, and b/c he is the one having to do stuff he’s
never had to think about. you have to hope that at some point (soon) he will realize everything it takes to run a
family. and how much time you spent at the dmv, dr’s offices, buying swimmy diapers, calling the gas man, etc. it’s
the tedium of life that is most hard. so don’t feel guilty. just know it’s an adjustment period. and that you are
more enlightened than he is right now.
S thanks.
J no prob.
S mostly for reminding me (and for remembering yourself) of all the
things that have been on my difficult moments list lately
J IT’S TRUE.
J you know. it’s the minutiae that gets in the way of the big picture.
J and you just have to deal w/it the best that you can and push it out of the
way sometimes to refocus on what’s right in front of you.
J and
J hope
J that
S that’s a quotable
J dan is doing it at the same time.
J it’s all this swimming.
J my brain is functioning better
J seriously
S you can tell its a rough marriage moment. because i’m teary. really
very teary.
S i like this brain
J i know. it totally sucks.
S a lot
J it sucks when the person you love so much does somethiing so shitty
J like hang up on you
J that just sucks
J or
J say
J gives you the silent treatment, for instance.
S not more than the old, less-functioning brain of yours, but i’m
happy for the clarity you are bringing me today
S :-)
J but it will run its course.
J just bide your time
J be the bigger person.
J it will benefit you all in the long (short?) run
J :-)
S and i will leave at 5 and get to the gym and be good and run and
feel good
S hey jen?
S i love you, my sister.
J :-)
J i will never hang up on yo
J u
J and that, my friend, is the diff btween an SO and a real sis.
S SO?
J sig other
S ahh yes. sorry (big dummy me)
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